Atonements

Atonements

I never said I wouldn't pay for these sins.
Not one action did I not engage in full volition.
I knew what I was doing, I chose these sins.
Yet, they blame me more, they say I knew better.

Insomuch as I knew it all along.
They knew me all along.
I really wanted to act differently.
I would have given so much to be like you.

I never said I wouldn't pay for these sins.
But who could ask for this.
I am plagued by their memories.
Are these scars? Are these tear not enough to atone?

So here I am, alone and wrecked.
You demolished my last stand.
And now I'm still here.
I'm still begging for forgiveness.

I never said I wouldn't pay for these sins.
However, hasn't it been long enough?
Haven't I bled out so much?
I even offered my life and that wasn't enough?